Wednesday, April 26, 2017

Pressure and Hope

I put a lot of pressure on myself to do things.

I let a lot of pressure go when I'm feeling overwhelmed.

And yet I still manage to feel guilty every time I see this blog tab.

Probably because the desire for all I set out to do in January is still there, but it is weak compared to other goals and life pulls, which take all the time I want to give.

What is left over goes to me, even though it's all mine.

But you know what I mean.

So this slightly-guilty weight just remains - solid, but suspended.

Is this weight to lose?

Or keep holding onto with a strand of hope?

A little guilt balloon with a hope string.

How many of those do I have?

Too many and I'll just float away.



Sunday, January 15, 2017

Another Opening

Another opening, another show,
There's no business like show business,
With a special kind of people known as show people.

<3

Friday, January 13, 2017

1/13/16 Even Donald Trump

A thought rather abruptly entered my mind today while I was on one of my many commutes:

God loves even Donald Trump.

What. Oh.... yeah, I guess so.

It came as a shock, and then a relief.  The shock factor: I don't like him, I don't trust him, I'm rather anxious about where our country is going to be led over the next span of time.  Which is not all his fault or responsibility and I know that.  But as the figurehead, he's going to get the blame.

The relief though?  That for all of our human worries and judgments, there is a greater force who knows something we don't necessarily recognize - a greater force who is willing to offer redemption.
For all of the terrible things people may be feeling or going through, there is a greater force that is in control.

So I will hold onto that and the love I feel from it; I will offer the kindness it offers me to the world, to give hope.  Human beings, as much as we can try, we will fail to love and be kind.  But there is something greater, for me it is God, who always can and always will offer true love, to the last moment.

That love is for everyone.  Even Donald Trump.

1/12/16 Full Moon

I'm just lucky I haven't lost my head.

Wednesday, January 11, 2017

Turn the Day Around

Sometimes the smallest thing can turn the day around.

I'm going to be a wife (!) in just over 5 months (!!).  And lots of people want to celebrate that, even strangers.  :)

Don't be afraid to celebrate people out loud - you never know when you can have a positive effect.

Tuesday, January 10, 2017

1/10/17 - Counting Blessings

Today happened.  I'm busy and tired.

But I'm blessed with work and love and a place to rest my head.

Trying not to complain too much.

Monday, January 9, 2017

Worry

Worry has me awake,
Holding me firm, shaking me fast.

Nasty news of troubled times.

I try to tell myself it's always troubled times, 
But this time it seems too terrible.

Dystopian novels seem presently prophetic.

I hope for fiction, a final page,
A happy ending.